Thursday, April 24, 2014

LDS "Apostasy"

Feeling the LOVE and LIGHT of my soul today.

Lots of people in general, and online, I guess try to put what I've been through, and what many others have been through into stages or steps.  Maslows Hierarchy of needs, Fowler Stages of Faith, Kubler-Ross Model of Grief, etc. etc. etc.  While it's nice to see parallels to what my experience has been, the frustrating thing is that while there are themes, but that everyone has experiences that are completely different.  I DO think I'm in a stage where I'm frustrated I didn't figure out my own set of beliefs a long time ago, but I'm trying every day to be patient and forgiving to myself for not becoming an apostate sooner.  I'm also trying to be forgiving to others around me who could have helped me "see" their point of view sooner.   But, being a "TBM", I'm not sure that would have worked anyway.  It's frustrating that I can't rush the journey, and when I try, I usually end up missing beauty and flat on my face.

Such loving and Christlike quotes:
"Remember, when we see the bitter apostate, you do not see only an absense of light, you see also the presence of darkness, do not spread disease germs."  Boyd K. Packer 
The Mantle is Far Far Greater than the Intellect.

More loving Christlike quotes from the church I dedicated half my life to:
"Latter-day Saints and their leaders.  A parade of anti-Christs, anti-Mormons, and apostate groups have appeared on the scene.  Many are still among us and have released...convert had fallen under the influence of a very dedicated apostate who was successful in destroying the convert's testimony.

1 comment:

Claire said...

I'm at the Ex-Mormon phase. It's hard, because my extended family are all members. It's hard because I left the church non-voluntarily (excommunicated) but discovered I did not want to go back, so my family thinks I just don't have the "Spirit" to guide me anymore.
It's hard because my mother cries over me every time we're together, saying how she is going to be miserable for all eternity because I won't be with her.

It's easy, because I feel happy and free from guilt and pressure associated with never doing enough or being enough. It's easy because I am no longer worried that I won't be happy if I don't do XYZ.

I am going to enjoy reading your blog.